existence

sometimes you just need a talk to another person
just to flood up your mind bout nothing
just to breaks a wall of your secret in your mind
just to make you feel any better even you don't know why

sometimes you need something you've never expected before
sometimes you just keep thinking "maybe it'll feel good to explode"
in the time no one there for you because of something you've already understand
you are not exist in their life.

and that simple thing's explain how hard this world
get up. and keep walking.

the best

it's when you have the best people in your life

so you're gonna do all the best you can do for him without he asks you to
so you can give the best you have for him just to make him happy of you

or sometime you'll do something stupid just to make your self sure he gets the best of everything
sometime you just cry in front of him with unclear reason while you're staring at his eyes

when you've got this man in your life,
it's the time when your life's full of love,
when your world's turn around to your way you want
just like everything's going on your way just by having this man,

just like me.

lunch

posting ini aku bikin waktu lagi duduk makan siang bareng kamunya aku.
di kotaku, Jogjakarta.
cukup. itu saja.

aku membuat kalian irikah? :)

again and again

other place to go
to make some noise in my mind
to make anything can be done
to make my mind out of you

but those are such useless things

still and always
thinking of you again and again

still,
i drop my tears everytime i leave this town
in the train where i have to sit alone

it's hard to find my self smiling
when i have to start all over again and again
every end of weekend

i know you got what i wrote here, Capt.
good luck :)

before i leave this town

let me see you
let us meet
just for a moment, just one more time

before i leave this town
before tomorrow comes

let me hug you
let me give you a "see you next holiday" word

before i cry of missing you
before my train picks me up

still,
i love you :)

something

when you got something you don't wanna have
when you saw something you don't wanna see
when you tried to forget the thing you always remember
when you pretended this fuckin' shit's never been happened


that's what's people do when a thing they hate happened to something that they love the most

I miss you

i don't know what to write
i just feel i wanna write when i miss you too deep till i cry
because i know someday you'll read all of my posts in this site

so i just wanna tell you,
now, i miss you too deep till i cry

i miss everything that we used to do together
i miss the moment when you made me cry like a kid
than you hug me like i was a teddy bear
i miss the moment when you laughed at me because i was ugly when i cry
then i could laugh because i heard your laugh

i miss every moment when i was with you without any fucking distance
i miss EVERYTHING about you,
even if you were standing in front of me right now.

i just miss you
once again, i'm telling you by this post
i miss you. so much.